Baby #2???

TIger is already talking about when we will have another baby. Lily is 9 weeks old. I know that we want to have the kids close together, but the question is: How close? The midwives suggest waiting a full year before getting pregnant to allow your body to heal, and I understand this concept, but part of me thinks, why bother going to all the trouble to get back into shape, back into my old jeans (if that will ever happen again) only to get the same old stretch marks and flabby stomach right back again? Might as well get it all over with and then let my body really heal.
Loni’s mom and sister’s were at her house for the birthday party today, and Loni’s mom’s first three kids were one year apart each, and then three-year gaps. She advised having the children close together, as did Loni, whoes first two children are a year apart. Her sister said she wished she’d had her children close together (the three are widely spaced.)
I do want the kids close together, not for my benefit, but for theirs—I want them to be able to play together well, unlike Katie and myself, who did not get along until after my wedding. Loni said that as long as they are mobile, let them be mobile together, and I see the wisdom in that, though I am afraid of not giving either of the children the attention they deserve, and for myself, missing out on their babyhood. I’d probably want more kids later simply because their babyhoods went so darn quickly.
One of my main concerns is that with Lily, I was profoundly tired throughout my pregnancy, but especially the first trimester, and I am worried I wouldn’t be able to take care of her properly, or at least the way I would want to take care of her. Then there is the subject of my youth; I suppose it would be best to get all my kids out of the way before I am 30, but I want to enjoy being young. There I go again, believing the television lie that I can’t have fun and enjoy my youth with my children. No, I must be out clubbing and sleeping around in order to live out my youth fully, so I screwed that up long ago.
Of course, it might take me longer than a year to become pregnant anyway. Or, like Tiger's cousin, I could end up preggers tomorrow (though I am nursing; I don’t know if she nursed). Too tierd, too soon to make these decisions. Blah.